I was going through a lot of depression, anxiety, and even self-harm. I’ve struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. But watching the video on suicide and self-harm touched me in a way I can’t fully explain. It awakened something inside me and showed me that there is more I can do.
After that, I explored other videos, including Oneness and Hukam. They moved me deeply because I needed to learn about our scripture from someone who spoke English and explained it so clearly. I wasn’t getting that understanding from anywhere else, and I felt overwhelmed in a good way by the wisdom I was receiving. Even though Nanak Naam is based in the UK, I continued to watch, to learn, and to take in as much as I could.
Being here in California, I was later able to attend a retreat. That experience gave me even more knowledge and helped me truly begin my spiritual journey. I came to understand that all the depression, anxiety, self-harm, and loneliness were actually leading me to seek a new path. What I once thought of as the dark night of the soul was not really me, it was guiding me here. I know I still have a long way to go.